So here I am, able to be at my computer with no rug rats begging for breakfast or chocolate milk. I gotta be quick though, before they notice me!!
So yesterday after my meltdown before and at Pricthard park, I realized that I can't do this alone. What I mean is raise my kids, be a supermom, be like Debbie Travis and do the quick one day renos, grocery shop, make jam, just about everything.
Jay has been gone most of this week and yesterday I was at the breaking point......Sarah is 3 kids put into one , so busy with discovering life and the taste of lost Lego pieces in her mouth so I am CONSTANTLY tending to her, then there are the 2 boys, Keegan and Aiden, they have been fighting NON-STOP this whole week and NOT listening as well..........not knowing what to do, I just stood and cried....no, I mean BAWLED!!! Bawled my beautiful head off!! What have I become??? WHat have my children become???? Where did I go wrong????
So I headed to the beach, still whimpering, my kids were talking to me on the way to the beach and I didn't say BOO to them. But they still kept talking to me and asking me questions, needless to say, the silent treatment does not work on kids!
Then I saw my friends at the beach, meanwhile I was almost 2 hours late, then the tears flow again. It is so wonderful to have friends that totally understand everything I am going through. They have all been there, know what it is like to be frustrated and exhausted.
After actually being able to sit down and enjoy the sunshine and the company of great friends, I felt so much better. So thanks girls, we'll see you at the beach again!!
Love, Mel
So yesterday after my meltdown before and at Pricthard park, I realized that I can't do this alone. What I mean is raise my kids, be a supermom, be like Debbie Travis and do the quick one day renos, grocery shop, make jam, just about everything.
Jay has been gone most of this week and yesterday I was at the breaking point......Sarah is 3 kids put into one , so busy with discovering life and the taste of lost Lego pieces in her mouth so I am CONSTANTLY tending to her, then there are the 2 boys, Keegan and Aiden, they have been fighting NON-STOP this whole week and NOT listening as well..........not knowing what to do, I just stood and cried....no, I mean BAWLED!!! Bawled my beautiful head off!! What have I become??? WHat have my children become???? Where did I go wrong????
So I headed to the beach, still whimpering, my kids were talking to me on the way to the beach and I didn't say BOO to them. But they still kept talking to me and asking me questions, needless to say, the silent treatment does not work on kids!
Then I saw my friends at the beach, meanwhile I was almost 2 hours late, then the tears flow again. It is so wonderful to have friends that totally understand everything I am going through. They have all been there, know what it is like to be frustrated and exhausted.
After actually being able to sit down and enjoy the sunshine and the company of great friends, I felt so much better. So thanks girls, we'll see you at the beach again!!
Love, Mel
3 comments:
So I was wondering when that melt-down was going to happen with the renos and all!! It's great to have a good cry and goods friends to lean on. Just makes one feel lots better. Wish I could be there for those times for you. Love Mom
mel
we cant be all things to all people or there is nothing left. I am so sorry that you had to experience that.. it is aweful.. I have been there many times and the tears just cant stop. I am always around the corner if you ever need to drop the kids off for a couple hours of play time while you get a little break...even if it is just for a much needed hair cut...
thanks for sharing your heart
Karleigh
love you... glad to hear your're going to cut yourself some slack
:-)
Aruba will be sooooooooo refreshing!!
on your team,
dawn
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