Have you ever had "one of those weeks" where everything just SUCKS! Pick me, I sure did. What is up with that???
I am really needing to grow some sort of thick skin so things don't bother me and I can stand up for myself but I also need to soften my heart.
But one day a few months ago I asked God to humble me. It's been really hard. Somehow he wants my "mess" to become a "message" but I am fighting it. I just can't do it. I have been stomped on too many times and I don't have strength to go on.
So...........here goes, I will try to go on even though I get my head bit off for no reason, get an email in all CAPS, and try to rebuild about 8 years of relationship between my oldest son.
I just want to curl up and cry or give a certain person the "evil glare" every time I leave my house, but being the mature and responsible adult I am, I just can't.
This week I have come to a reality that has kicked me in the teeth and will knock me out for awhile. But with baby steps I know I can rebuild what I have broken....insert tears here.
God humble me and soften my heart.....I need it.
Here's a great verse:
8 The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. 9 He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever
Words to live by......
ps...the person who made up the saying "enjoy your children while they are young"......never had any.....seriously, the last 11 years has been a blur and I don't know what the heck I did :-)
6 comments:
Im cheering and praying for you all the way. Keep your chin up girl God is always faithful. He only tears us down so he can build us up better.
sorry I posted twice and it didnt work properly! AH!
mel. love you and praying for you.
WHatever you are going through I know that you can make it. you are STRONG and COURAGEOUS and wonderful and amazing. You children are worth the fight.. so fight with all you've got!!!
and remeber you are never alone... and that you have a friend in LAngley holding you up in prayer.
and if you ever need a listening ear, I am only a phone call away.
K
so what's up with Karleigh? Did she move away? We obviously need to catch up the phone-soon~! You may think you suck but I think your awesome!
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