Thursday, March 18, 2010

It's back.......

I am fighting it, and I am failing......it's back, and back with avengence.  The stupidest thing is that I have NOTHING to be depressed about.  Why me?  One day I will ask God face to face why he has chosen me to have this deep dark disease. 
If I look back at the last 6 months, I haven't been able to think or have words to explain things to my kids and husband,  somedays I feel like my disease has turned into Alzheimers!! so I suffer in silence.  So my days will continue...hour by hour, minute by minute, second by second. 

2 comments:

Barley Girl said...

mel, I am so sorry that you have to fight this in your own silence. I want you to know that I am ALWAYS a phone call away and that you are NOT alone.
hang in there.. keep on swimming ( cause that will help), and know that I love you and am praying for you and your battle,
love always and forever,
karleigh

one in 400 said...

Mel,
Wishing you a way out of this and in the mean time know I would love to be there with you or for you or around you in whatever way you need. I love you girl and i think your awesome.
tracy