Writers Block...

For the last few weeks I have been suffering from something we call Writers Block. Yes, Writers block! Most times I have so much to say and I could post about 50 blog posts a day!! Lately my brain is at a stand still. It could be because of the many boxes I have packed for our big move up the hill and around the corner or just having enough energy to get through the day with 3 kids and a husband.
I was reading an email I got from Teresa Klassen when I found out I was pregnant with Sarah (and did not want to be..still haven't found a name that means OOPS!)
It was such an uplifting emotional letter that I found myself weeping while I read it. I will let you read a few blurbs from it.

"Hi Mel -- I had way too much caffeine last night so I have been buzzed awake most of the night. Anyway, a few names were running through my mind in my sleeplessness and you were one of them, so I decided to get up and make use of this time and write you a note :-)

As I was praying for you, I had this verse running through my mind -- you know when Jesus said that there is no greater love then to lay your life down for a friend? That idea kept mulling around in my head because I was thinking about the aspect of motherhood and how applicable that is. The very act of carrying a child through nine months of pregnancy is miraculous, of course, but when they are cramming their foot into your liver it seems less so. For the most part, motherhood is just one continual act of servant hood.

As a mom you are really laying something down for those little "friends." It is interesting to think of your four-year old or an unborn child as a friend, hey? This just shows me again how God views things so differently then us. We can't see all the potential of their life the way God does, but to him, they are a whole story. "I already know the plans I have for you," God is saying to your unborn child. I wonder what those are? That child already has a significant role to play in God's story. That child is going to change your life, but (this is a cool thought) they have an important role to play in countless other people's lives. You aren't just carrying a baby, you are carrying a piece of the puzzle that God had in mind before the foundations of the earth were laid. He is knitting together something irreplaceable and intentional.

When this baby is born, your home will find room for him or her and you will adjust to having yet another "consumer" underfoot; but it is so much bigger then just your family: part of the world will move over to make room for him/her. Your baby will be a friend to someone who needs one, lend a hand where none would have been offered without them, say the right word where otherwise it would be silent, give a hug when no one else is around. That is only scratching the surface...

OK, that is giving me goosebumps to think about.

I am past the stage you are at right now and for the most part I sleep through the night (except when I go to Starbucks too late in the evening), but I know what you are walking into. I just wanted to encourage you because I know it isn't easy to "lay down your life" and your plans and your sleep and your sanity, but what you are doing -- giving something up for a friend -- is a sweet offering to God.

May God bless you, and protect you

May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you

May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace (Numbers 6:24)"

Teresa is an amazing writer. She summed it all up for me in just this one email. On my darkest days when I couldn't think of getting off the couch, I would read this and realize that God had plans for me all along and they are in his control, not mine.

"motherhood is just one continual act of servant hood." What a statement!
Love, Mel